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Oct. 16th, 2017 06:24 pm
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 Rebels spoilers....
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Dear Creator - Holidays!!! on Ice

Oct. 15th, 2017 10:43 am
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Dear Creator for Holidays!!! on Ice,

Firstly thank you! I'm really looking forward to whatever you produce. If you want to know more about what I like you can see the sort of art I reblog here on tumblr or you can see my fic bookmarks here on ao3. I also made a longer list of likes and dislikes here.

Best Wishes

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Dzur through Iorich

Oct. 11th, 2017 02:01 pm
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The Great Big Dragaera Reread, part 5

VALLISTA HAS SHIPPED! *happydance* Guess I'll have to keep cracking on these. SUCH HARDSHIP.

It's interesting to move from "books I've reread so many times they're like old friends I've not seen in awhile" through "books I know pretty well and enjoy getting reacquainted with" and on into "books I like a lot but don't know as well as I could, or as I think I do."

Klava, Dzur, Jhegaala, Iorich )

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Oct. 11th, 2017 01:40 pm
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Oh hey, look. It's one of my vaguely depressive episodes where I don't feel like doing anything. Wee. (I'll be okay. Just one of those things to weather.)

I did write some words I'm pretty happy about; in anticipation of playing Tybalt from the October Daye novels again. It's funny, in swapping out his PB face (Aidan Turner from Jonathan Rhys Meyers) , Tybalt is sharing a lot more of his internal self to me. I also need to decide if I want to reboot him within Milliways, or run with the person who was in before.

Well, enough of that. Time for some cheesy tunes to chase to blues away.

where the week/end went

Oct. 10th, 2017 02:46 pm
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Last week my boss Clare was in town (she's normally in London), and Wednesday turned out to be Team Outing Day. Dim sum at Kirin downtown (fancy, tasty, not the best dim sum I've had but quite good), followed by an escape room at which we did not embarrass ourselves even though we didn't make it out, followed by drinks.

That turned out to be Too Much Social for me, so instead of going to a stranger-ful munch like I'd planned I just went home. Unquestionably the right decision, even if I regret having had to miss meeting new people.

Meanwhile, on Friday I got a gum graft.

cut for potential squick )

On Sunday I caught what will probably be my only VIFF movie of the year, Bad Genius. It's a Thai film about cheating on exams, and it was fun and tense and enjoyable to watch. I'm not super fond of the redemptionist ending but I'm not sure what sort of ending I would have preferred, so there's that.

I miss complex movies. This one wasn't super complex but it kept me entertained and kept me thinking. Maybe I'll try to make it out to another VIFF movie tomorrow, or more likely Thursday.

... thanks?

Oct. 9th, 2017 09:47 pm
jazzfish: a black-haired man with a big sword. blood stains the snow behind (Eddard Stark)
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I don't even know what to say.

I'm thankful for Erin, for my friends, for having a place to live and a job that pays me and isn't destroying my body or soul. I'm thankful that I have the space to sort out what I'm looking for and what I'm doing. I'm thankful that we (I) (we) can start the citizenship application process, that the timeline has been moved up by a year.

I'm thankful that I had the day off, and that I could choose to spend some of it helping a new person pack for moving. And I'm thankful that I'm together enough that I could see warning signs and be wary of further entanglement with that person.

I miss Emily, and my kittens (*sniffle*), and a space that's mine with all my stuff in. I miss Erin though that at least solves itself every few weeks.

I guess I'm thankful that I can feel that.

I'm thankful that I'm still here, ultimately.

I Need Help

Oct. 10th, 2017 02:47 am
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[personal profile] hatman
Please brainstorm with me.

What's been going on:

Here's the story so far. It's a few pages long, which I realize is considered a wall of text when you're reading on a screen. (In any other context that would be fairly short. Weird how our perceptions work.) Skim it or whatever you need. But context matters. If you're going to help, you should know where I'm coming from, what I've been through, what I've tried, etc.

The short version is that I've got chronic illness, I'm over the hill, and I'm stuck trying to figure out what to do with myself to make a meaningful life.

The following lists will probably be updated as more things come to mind, but here's the overview:

What I'm trying to do:

  • Find a way to be productive.
  • Find a way to make a positive difference in the world. Better, happier, fairer.
  • See if I can start a business that can at least help support me so I'm not reliant on my family's generosity for the rest of my life.

What I've Got Going For Me:

  • I can listen to people, sympathize with them, and try to be supportive. I have patience and a willingness to try to see different points of view.
  • I have enough money available to maybe start a small business.
  • I can often write clearly to express ideas even when I'm too exhausted to think.
  • I've got an above average knowledge and comprehension of science, politics, and various random subjects. I've got a pretty good memory for concepts I've learned, and I can usually explain them in ways that make sense to people.
  • I've got a loving family and good friends who try their best to be understanding and supportive.
  • My immune system kicks butt, and not just my own.
  • I can sew stuffed animals and pillows. (Though I spend more on materials than I could possibly sell them for.)
  • Puns just come naturally to me. My brain likes to make odd connections between random things.
  • I don't have a wheelbarrow here, but I could probably get one. It's worth listing among our assets. (I do not, however, have a flammable cloak.)

My Limitations:

  • I'm physically exhausted. Getting less than 9 hours of sleep in a night can mess me up for days. It's not uncommon for me to be so weary I can't sit up, can hardly draw breath, am really woozy, etc. On a good day, I can walk a mile or so. But I'll pay for it the next day. On a bad day, I can spend the entire day crashed on the couch, barely functional. I cannot, in general, predict when I'll have good or bad days. A string of bad days can last for months or longer.
  • Attempting to exert myself, mentally or physically, exhausts me frighteningly fast. That can include keeping up with realtime conversations, particularly via audio instead of text.
  • My nerves are hypersensitive. I'm constantly in pain. Bright lights, loud noises, high pitched noises, physical contact, etc. etc. are painful. More some days than others. But a friendly slap on the back can ache for several minutes. On rough days, I'm sensitive enough that people making small sounds halfway across the house, though a closed door, while I'm wearing high-end noise dampening ear protectors designed for the gun range, can still be overwhelming.
  • I've got a non-24 "free running" sleep schedule, meaning that I'm awake different hours from week to week. I generally average a 25 hour day, but it can be hard to predict more than a couple of weeks in advance (at best) what hours I'll be awake. Makes regular commitments very difficult.
  • Due to the exhaustion, it can be hard to focus mentally, and I can't maintain focus for long.
  • I'm somewhat dyslexic. (It runs in the family, but I can never remember on which side...) Possibly related is a difficulty translating information from one form to another. It makes coding and diagrams very difficult.
  • I've also got various other autoimmune disorders. Diabetes, hypothyroidism, alopecia totalis (i.e. no hair, including eyebrows and eyelashes).

What I'm Looking For:

  • Practical advice for what I can do.
  • Brainstorming for what kind of business I can start that would employ others in a way that makes a positive impact on the world and generates income for me.

What I'm Not Looking For:

  • "Buck up. Others have it worse." Irrelevant. Yes, you can always find someone who has it worse than you. That doesn't mean that your own struggles aren't real. I'm dealing with my life. My limits. My needs. I'm dealing mentally as best I can. But I need actual practical solutions. Being told to just cheer up and/or get over it is unhelpful.
  • "Have you tried this cure/treatment?" I've been at this for decades. I've worked with more doctors than I can count. We've done research. I've tried medications and treatment regimens. I've explored some "alternative" treatments. I know how to meditate. I'm doing the best I can for myself. Medical marijuana isn't for me and it's not a magical cure-all. If you've got some suggestion that's got actual clinical evidence, I'll consider it. But odds are I've already tried it or been advised by a medical professional that it doesn't apply to my individual case.
  • "Seek professional help." I've tried. Psychiatrists, psychologists, antidepressants, a hypnotherapist. It hasn't been helpful. And it's not what I'm looking for now. I need to address the root issue.
  • Unhelpful or negative comments. I'll ignore them. Spam and trolling will be deleted.

Anyone can comment. I'll respond as I can, if I have something to say. You do not have to have an account or log in to comment, but if you comment anonymously I would appreciate it if you would tell me who you are. If you're not comfortable doing that, I understand.

You can also sign in using OpenID. You should be able to use your WordPress, Blogspot, AOL, Yahoo, LiveJournal, or other participating account to sign in here. You just need your provider's OpenID URL and to be logged in at that provider. For more information, you can try OpenID Explained or the Wikipedia article. (Yeah, I know. You probably haven't used any of those services in years. But the option is there if you want.)

Alternatively, you can message me on Discord (WearsHats) or Twitter (@hataroni) or email me (hatman at dreamwidth dot org). I'd prefer to keep everything here in one place, especially since it allows people to review what others have said and bounce ideas around. But if public comments don't work for you, I'll take them where I can.

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Oct. 8th, 2017 02:41 pm
azurelunatic: Teddybear that contains ethernet switch.  (teddyborg)
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I see that a number of people are moving to Discord for chat, both in general and also because AIM is going bye-bye.

I'm Azz#2671 if anyone wants to chat there; I have it on the desktop but I'm not sure if I've installed it on the current phone.

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Oct. 7th, 2017 06:06 pm
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 And the girls got second place in the water polo tournament. \o/

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Oct. 7th, 2017 05:20 pm
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 So just a warning, I've decided to see what Linkin is about and it already knew I knew some of you, and so had me
follow you. I have no idea if I'll stick around but I thought I'd give you fair warning. :)

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Oct. 7th, 2017 09:26 am
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 At the water polo tournament and waiting for the Teen's game to start. Killed some. Time going through my old Ben Grimm account ([personal profile] ever_lovin ) and realizing how many words I wrote for him from the various storylines the comics had while I played him. I should collect, polish, and publish them. 

Assumptions, baking

Oct. 7th, 2017 02:02 am
azurelunatic: A glittery black pin badge with a blue holographic star in the middle. (Default)
[personal profile] azurelunatic
... I believe that two of my friends have invented an entire spouse for a third friend (all former co-workers of mine) on the strength of baking.

Specifically, the colleague very occasionally brings meat pies in. And he was going to bring some in at some future point, but he moved continents before it happened. And his wife bakes them.

I was certain that no such entity exists, and that the man does his own baking.

The guys and I haven't synchronously discussed it, and they're not even quite sure on gender, and they barely hear of "her"...

I shall have to inquire.

But as things stand, two of the better informed and well intentioned feminist dudes I know believe that someone else bakes for a certain man...

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Oct. 5th, 2017 06:39 pm
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I just figured out a thing. Part of why I keep tripping up over the Dialectic word in DBT is because I associate it with diametrically opposed, when actually it's about both/and, not either/or opposition. Putting it here to remind myself and in case it helps anyone else who was having the same issue.

books for wednesday!

Oct. 4th, 2017 10:50 am
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What are you reading?

I was away from my Dragaera books last week when I finished Viscount, and Erin's books are mostly unpacked and there's a shelf of "tucker should read these," so I picked up Kim Stanley Robinson's The Years of Rice and Salt. I am *checks table of contents* a little over ten percent through it. It appears to be a sweep-of-alternate-history book, following different characters through the centuries after the Black Death wipes out all of Europe instead of just a third of it, with a loose framing story around reincarnation. I'm not sure what I think of it yet but I haven't given up on it.

What did you just finish reading?

The Viscount of Adrilankha, for which see the medialog post. (Summary: enjoyable, but enjoyable primarily in the context of the rest of the Dragaera books, and bordering on Too Much Paarfi.)

I also finally finished Full Fathom Five. I'm still enjoying the Craft sequence quite a lot, I just have a strong preference for dead-tree books at the moment (and probably in general). One thing I put together just recently: Gladstone's world is explicitly a fantasy analogue of our own. This lets him toss off asides like "Koschei fighting with the Golden Horde" and I immediately have a sense of a sorcerous Siberian at war with steppe nomads. It adds depth to the worldbuilding, and I'm not sure whether it's depth that the world has earned. It feels a little like cheating, is I guess what I'm saying. Neat, though.

What do you think you'll read next?

Back on the Great Dragaera Reread, with the "new" (less than a decade ... crud, not anymore, Dzur was eleven years ago, I guess it's really "post-Blacksburg") Vlad books.